I watch too much TV, maybe hear too many sad songs, I do not know. But here is a shortcut, so maybe a few of my own memories are verflochen who can already say exactly ... the many rainy weather has a strange effect on me.
A question
You open your mouth without realizing it you hurt me. You throw me things on the head, that I can handle not, which I have nothing opposed to. I do not know if you list my silence as a victory for you if you know just how much your words really hurt me. It should not matter to me, maybe I should be so hurtful and often I break my head if I'm not. Am I the reason you're always so offensive to me? Why do you act the way it is, how you do it? Is it my own doing, what challenges you on this? I give my last end themselves to blame, find the error in me, which may not even exist. Suffer as a wounded animal and wonder what I did just wrong. What can I do so everything changes, what can I say that everything is the same? What can I do that you do not by any act, feel assaulted by every word? has
of your question then I am surprised you have never received an answer, you keep me from it? Is that the reason that now lie between us worlds where we do have once challenged a common path? Never again, this was an issue between us, for a time all went well, we met, we laughed and had fun together, why has this changed? Have I changed? Have you changed? Or we both changed so much that we face no longer with us can, without fighting us? Where is this sympathetic silence, the mutual silence, which has made our friendship so special? I do not know, she seems to have gone on the road of life lost. I'll go out of their way not respond to your calls, am no longer where you are and yet I can not do it, you go out of their way. What I did back then liked about you makes me sad now, excites me, makes me angry. Your selfishness, your stubbornness to accept your incompetence different opinion and to understand se, your violent manner, if something does not fit you. I know why I can not bear it, because you understand I do not accept, not my opinion, go a step towards me, if I ask you for something, go back honest, hurts me.
And then I let myself back on you, I do not know why. I think you're back from the person earlier that made me laugh, who has understood me, who agree with me was, but then again you do something stupid. Hurt me with words, makes me doubt myself, bring me cry. And why? I do not know and I also do not have the energy to think about it. Go call me out of the way, I no longer, meet up with me no more, get out from my life, and finally go back to me on a step. I stretched out my arms, you served my hands but you've knocked it. Do not tell me I should not have tried to give not blame me, I know better now. And yet I always fall in on you, let me re-injured and sink into self pity. How many times have I made up my mind to stop responding to your words, to ignore you, not for you to respond, but I can not. If you knew me, and like you're so convinced, then you had to know that I can not do that.
You wanted an answer to a question. To a simple question but would not be able to severe. You shall have your answer. You shall know that you were to me an expensive friend, should know that you meant a lot to me. But no, everything is not there, we are not nearly as similar as we thought and the common ground that we had are now gone. You set a question on which you've got silence for an answer to this question because I was not prepared. Words have never been my strong point. But today, after you hurt me again crying again have brought, you shall have your answer.
I do not love you ...
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